yeah to be honest, I really don’t know what to believe anymore. I’ve realized that people are really all talk and it’s become really difficult to find out how people really are on the inside.
in a perfect world, a person could come up to you and tell you “hi, my name is so-&-so, & this is the kind of person I am”. instead we have to sit there and try to piece together what kind of human being this person is.
the worst is when you’re wrong - when everything you believed in that person: was a lie. when they’ve built up so much faith in you & convinced you that everything was ok & that they were a trustworthy person. then they ruin you & pour salt in your wounds. and that’s how life is.
GTFO of my fucking life. I’m sick of all that you’ve done to me. all I’ve been doing all day has just been listening to the music that makes me think of you and I can’t stand it. I want you out of my fucking mind. please.. I just want to be me - but I can’t with you taking up all of my thoughts… just go away, please
I AM stupid and I know it. not only days after you broke my heart am I helping you with your guy problems - but also I’m helping you with the specific ones… since y’know they’re my friends and all.. i’ve never thought something like this would happen to me. I hear people go through this all the time, but experiencing it myself is hell. if only you know how much i’ve gone through because of you. you were my EVERYTHING, you ment the world to me. I helped you move across town, I helped you with your friends, and family. I was always there for you, and you never once thought about giving a shit about me…. well I’m just going to finish this blog, write a song, and you’ll be just a memory for the rest of my life. I loved you. fuck you, & your fucking face.
why do i keep running back to you? i always let myself just slowly float back to you when all you do is ruin me. why can’t i just stop being in love with you?! all you do is treat me like shit as if i’m just some nobody and to me you’re everything. i wish i could just forget all memory of you and never have to see you again, but that can’t happen. i know what’ll happen - i’ll be this upset and hate myself for a week or two, then you’ll start texting me some more. i’ll come over, things’ll get settled, we’ll be happy for another week or so. then you’ll pull the same shit on me again. it’s like i never learn, i just come back to it to receive more and more suffering. i despise you for this. why can’t you stop? what have i done for you to treat me this way? i promise i’m a good person who only wants to love you with all my heart. but you wont let me…. i fucking hate my decisions.
see the tear in the dog’s eye .. yeah I know some people will see this and just scroll over but do you think it’s worthwhile just filling your tumblr with stuff that has no point rather then making people aware of their acts It only takes a button press :(