I hate these stupid little emotions I get from people and the tiny relationships I have with them that cause me to feel this way. I seriously & honestly wish I just could not care about anyone other than myself. I am so, so tired of being the only one who really puts an effort or cares for people when I get nothing in return other than spite and lies. I’m just so tired of this. fuck everybody. really.
about all that could possibly happen with this. I don’t know if thongs could suddenly take a turn for the worse. I’m not even certain how I feel about this yet. what if I get hurt again? I’m still so confused about precious things, how can I just switch over so fast? but there’s a sense of comfort with this. I
feel like if I work hard, something good may come out of it. what if… what if things finally fell perfectly into place? what if things actually worked out in my favor for once? how crazy would that be? I just hope nothing bad happens..
it’s all a bit settled at the moment, but I can’t help but feeling very endangered. I’m really worried at the moment that something could happen to me. I do have a pocket knife in my room just in case, but idk how fast I’d be able to get to it if anything happened. really, I shouldn’t be tumbling- rather, figuring out how I’m getting out of here before something happens.
everyone knows the feeling. when it seems like everyone around you is finding themselves very special people and everyone is in a relationship. now I dont care much for the relationship part - I’m not out to FIND some girl to date. but I am tired of being all alone in this world. I posted earlier this week about the little bit of hope I have that one day I’ll find that special person, and I still believe that. but it just sucks when it seems like everyone else is rubbing it in your face :/